Guilt

Okay so let me tell the world what a horrible mother I am. This has been weighing on me.... My name is Briana... and I was a mean mommy..

At the beach I really wanted to get a good head shot of Aidan... hopefully with her smiling. I wanted a photo shoot. Aidan, being two, a kid, and excited over being at the beach wanted to.... PLAY! ~gasp~ how dare she? Soo, was she cooperative with the picture taking? No, of course not. Did I just let her play and take pictures of her enjoying herself? NO! Instead... I got ... um... frustrated and started taking it out on her and I feel TERRIBLE! What was my problem? What bee was in my bonnet? Honestly, I was one step away from being the next Mommy Dearest... okay maybe two steps... BUT... not only did I lose my temper with my beautiful little girl who just wanted to play but I did it in front of other people who looked at me like I was.... well... like a horrible mother. The picture of what I must have looked like keeps running in my head and I inwardly cringe. Rarely have I acted like that but that still doesn't excuse my behavior. I don't know why I was so frustrated.. at the time it was just driving me nuts that she wouldn't let me take just a few shots.. and ... I wasn't too nice. No... please know... I wasn't beating her or yelling like a crazy lady but I was OVERLY annoyed and if I had seen a mother lose her cool in that way I'd think "dang lady she just wants to play" I did wrong and I'm really sorry.

Really. Really. Sorry.