Monday, November 30, 2009

November Happenings....

This was one of those months....



Nothing really has been happening. Most days tend to run together with slight variations. John has been busy finishing up with school (YAY) so family outings are on hold for the moment. He finishes on the 5th.... (Did I say YAY?) but mostly the girls and I have stayed home because sickness has been an unwelcome guest for about three weeks now. Ugh!

Preschool has been put on hold ...again... until January. I am spending about 15 minutes a night randomly working with Aidan on reading words using Bob books, a wipe board, and Alpha Phonics. Of course I am way behind my own schedule (to the point I'm worried about how well I'll do when I have to homeschool) but then again... she is only three.

I had a second miscarriage at approx. 6 weeks and this one really got me emotionally... because I felt it was going okay. But... its fine and we're planning on trying again in December.


So what did we do?

I took the girls to a softplay area in a local mall

We tried out storytime at the new library

We had a fun playdate at our house

and of course...

there was Thanksgiving.

I'm looking forward towards next month!

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Thanksgiving 09



This year we drove up to N.C. and spent it with my sister and her family. Thanksgiving itself was nice and very pleasant but the "visiting" part for me, at least, was cut short.
(I ended up in bed the next two days from being really sick. -BLEH)

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Spotlight

The girls were going over to their Nana's for her birthday... they made her cards and were being so cute I had to take a few pictures.

I think perhaps my children will think it normal for people to take pictures every time they leave the house...on the way to somewhere...


Thursday, November 05, 2009

Dear Aidan on Being THREE


Aidan,

So you are now three. Are you sure you're not Four? Honestly, I thought I would feel this to be a huge milestone and mostly I'm just surprised you're only three. Somewhere along the way you surpassed "where you should be" and left it in the dust. What an amazing girl you are! You bring so many smiles to our faces. Many of us just dote on you. The things you say... the expressions... the seriousness that is you. Of course, like any other three year old you can be quite the goofball... sometimes to the point I feel mild embarrassment... but over all you are just plain COOL... You really are.


A few months ago you found your wings and have gained so much confidence it is shocking. You are no longer Lady Bug... you are now Sassafras. For about two or three weeks I was running scared. I already knew that three was worse than two but OMYGOD child... for awhile there you were a MONSTER. Seriously, I was thinking I might have to trade you in. ;-) Luckily, however, after you tested us for that short time... you settled down. It took a lot of consistent consequences, a lot of understanding and patience on my part , and a lot of time outs and negative discipline. I didn't always know what to do in every situation especially because I had never encountered them with you. Sometimes I lost it and sometimes I had to fight hard not to just smack you but we worked through it and the consistent disciplining got us through. One day, when you have kids, you'll understand. It's hard to know how to handle every situation in just the right way. The secret of being a Mommy is that half the time we are just totally winging it. Mommy is not always as "in control" as she likes to pretend. (I don't mean to say the defiant behavior and back-talking is gone completely but it shows up a lot less)

You take everything literally and logically. Sometimes you make me feel stupid. Just the other night... because I didn't want to go find all your various stuffed animals you wanted to sleep with... I told you they were playing together and didn't want to come to bed. You looked at me with that brow of yours furrowed and said "But Mommy, they can't move!" You looked at me like I was insane and I swear with a hint of sympathy. It cracked me up.

Your interest in reading has grown. Though you CAN read.. you haven't really worked on it until lately... you now will sit with books and try to work out the words on your own. Sometime this month, we are starting the first year of Preschool. I'm pretty excited and so are you. You have your little book bag and pencils and workbooks and you keep asking "when we can start".

Even during your most defiant times.. you still like to help and have a job to do. If I ask you to run or fetch or carry something you do so willingly. Chores are rarely an issue with you... so far, anyway. You mother hen Ainsley still and try to take up for her all the time. I'm hoping one day you'll get that it won't work out in your favor if you continue doing so. You are SUCH an older child... a classic, textbook case. Really.

Sometimes you get bored. It has become apparent that if we have a "lazy day" and you haven't had any mental stimulation at all then you misbehave and throw the most tantrums. Speaking of which... tantrums...for you... mean crying and sometimes "dancing" your legs (like you're marching) Usually, it doesn't last long because I can reason with you and I'll tell you to breath... in through your nose..out through your mouth... you'll do so and then its over... and we'll talk about what's wrong. The rare times you do get out of control ...I'll put you in your room until you are ready to calm down. (which, to be honest, usually happens when I've lost my cool)

You like to sing a lot but rarely do you get the words right. It's kind of endearing. Even if I repeat the lines to you ...you still make up tons of words and things that I never even remotely said.

Oh the WHINING! You whine and it is my mission in life to stop it! So far... I just tell you I cannot understand you when you speak that way and that you need to speak normally. It seems to be working so I'm crossing my fingers that whining will stop soon. Oh How I HOPE!

Your imagination just keeps on soaring. I love to listen to you and Ainsley playing. You make things up and lead her around telling her what you are doing and what's going on. Something of note though... is that in your play you use manners really well. Barbie will ask in that falsetto voice everyone tends to use "Oh, may I please have a turn on the bicycle?" and the other Barbie will reply... "Oh yes, please do, here you go..." I love it... that's a sign that you're being taught well... right?

Oh! (this is really important) it looks like your hair has started thickening up as well as getting darker... AND you are now 36 inches tall... YOU made it to 3 feet! Whoo Hoo

Aidan, there are so many things and moments and thoughts that I say to myself... I need to write that down... but of course I don't and I never remember half of what I want to say about you. So, I'll just say this....you're a wonderful child and I'm lucky to have you in my life.

and if I said that to you...you would say very decisively and matter of fact ... "I SANK SO!"

Monday, November 02, 2009

Top 10 Signs You're Preggo ( before you take a test)

10. Your period is late

09. You experience sharp pulling pains every time you stand up

08. For three weeks now you have had a headache... it's always there

07. You find certain foods absolutely disgusting and cannot understand why people would even contemplate eating them

06. Your bedtime has changed from 12-ish to 9-ish

05. You like to google "am I pregnant"

04. You have such a bad case of Acid Reflux and Indigestion you are severely limited to what you can eat

03. Hugs from your exuberant children bring tears to your eyes.. and not from emotion but from pain

02. You find yourself salivating over cans of chili in the supermarket

01. Wha?... OH!... Sorry... (YAWN)... I Fell Asleep!

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Halloween Festivities


I love Halloween. It's my favorite Holiday next only to Christmas. We did a LOT of things this year. Seriously it was action packed...

We...

-Went to the local pumpkin patch/ festival put on by our local garden club
-Went to a semi-local farm with hayrides, games, rides, a corn maze and wonderfully large pumpkins
-Went to a local costume party
-Held our own Halloween craft-date
-Went to a large festival at a nearby church
-Traveled to N.C.
- Went to another Halloween party
-Saw the Shriner's circus
-Went trick or treating until 9pm




If you put aside all the back and forth about the origins and whether or not Halloween is pagan and against GOD ... Halloween is FUN! And... well... if the almighty is really worried about kids dressing up and accepting candy from people... then I suppose I'll deal with it in the afterlife.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

DUHHH!


So I finally decided to pick up one of the 25 piece puzzles to see if Aidan could put it together.

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Aidan's 3rd Birthday!



Things didn't turn out as planned. We all are battling the flu this week so I had to cancel the Hello Kitty Party. I held off for a while... wondering if I could get away with it... but I knew better. So, we combined the birthday party with the Family party. It went well. Family showed up. Aidan had fun. She received a lot of Hello Kitty things. McMama made a great cake.



There was no crying from Aidan this year. She quite happily was sung to. My funny girl took me very serious when I said to "close (her) eyes, make a wish, and blow out the candles."



An amusing note: The day ended with the smaller kids taking a bath in the kitchen sink
(we've had a lot of rain and our septic tends to back up)

Saturday, the guys finished building the wall between our bedroom and bathroom. I am SO VERY PLEASED to have that done... it makes a HUGE difference. Ainsley, because she was the sickest hung out with them while the rest of us went with the other kids for their "educational excursion" (they have to do something educational to have excused absences.)

The Wall

FROM THIS:



TO THIS:


Now I can ...
A: stop using our bedroom as a storage unit
and
B: start renovating the bathroom
Hooray!

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Break

Right now is the calm before the storm... family is coming in at 10 tomorrow morning. The day will be spent building a wall between our bathroom and bedroom (which is for some odd reason completely open to each other). Somewhere in there I'll take a trip to Sams. Friday there will be an educational excursion somewhere for the visiting kids as well as a family cookout to celebrate Aidan's birthday. Oh yeah, and Friday we'll be finishing the wall. Saturday is Aidan's HELLO KITTY PARTY! She is extremely excited.

I?

I cannot claim to be excited. On one hand, I mean, of course I am because I'm excited over Aidan being excited but the closer its gotten... the more I wish I hadn't planned so much. I think reality has hit me and I realize now that Aidan would be happy with far less than what I'm orchestrating. Though, to be fair, some of my spirit has perhaps been dampened because I've had a few cancellations from people with very shaky excuses.

My daughter is turning three. I think the standard line is "I can't believe it!" Uh... well... part of me can't believe it but the majority of me cannot believe she's older. Honestly... I FEEL like she should be turning 4. I even caught myself checking her birth date to make sure I hadn't made some gross miscalculation... or somehow forgot an entire year.

Okay... not really... but you get the point.

It's almost midnight.

I gotta go...

clean the kitchen top to bottom

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Family Day 09

Every year John's work has a Family Day. There are rides, concessions, games, bounce houses, etc. All of it is free as long as you're an employee or a dependent. John was unable to go this year because he was at school (working on a MBA). So, McMama and I took the girls. It had been a long week and Aidan had a concussion so they weren't in the best of moods. Perhaps next year it will be more fun.

They both rode the ponies...
Aidan rode without me holding on
Ainsley for the first time
The Petting Zoo

Friday, October 09, 2009

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

Sometimes

Sometimes FEAR overtakes me and I drown in it

Sometimes the universe seems too big and I too small

Sometimes in every corner I see a monster,
in every action I see a tragedy

Sometimes I lie awake bawling with my heart breaking... living out an imagined scenario

Sometimes the lanes in the road seem too narrow and
I drive with my heart in my mouth... waiting for the crash

Sometimes I see so much evil and malice in people
I want to hide inside forever

Sometimes I just sit and wait for that ax to fall

BUT

Sometimes a monster is real

and

Sometimes a tragedy does occur

Life can change in just a blink

KISS your babies

LOVE them

KNOW they are precious

Tonight my girls sleep safe and sound
(I hope)

But oh how different things might have been!

Monday, October 05, 2009

Leaps and Bounds

I took Aidan back to gymnastics today and learned another lesson: don't underestimate you kids.

In my mind I was thinking that probably until January I'd have to take Aidan to the Mommy and Me class (18m-2yrs) because I thought she'd never be able to go to the 3 year old class... alone... without me. HA! Today, my shy and socially immature child followed the teacher Ms. Christy's directions and spoke to her with not a hint of shyness. She did so well that Ms. Christy invited her to try out the 3 year old class (that started right after). I asked if Aidan wanted to. She said "yes". So, knowing Aidan as I do, I told Ms. Christy that I'd sit on the sidelines and be close by 'cause I wasn't sure how Aidan would do. HA AGAIN! When class started Aidan was the first kid to go over and get her little mat and sit in the circle like she was supposed to. From then on, it was as if I wasn't there and quickly I realized I might as well join the other mothers in the balcony because I was completely unneeded.

Aidan did wonderful! Not only was she the most well behaved kid (never got up and wondered around or played but sat on her mat) but she intently watched everything the other girls did so that when her time came she'd try her hardest... AND she did a really good job with the routines.

She, my serious and hesitant baby girl, even did a few flips.

And so I sat there.... shaking my head... I couldn't believe it... I thought I KNEW her... I thought I had her pegged JUST SO.

Aidan showed me something today... that she's stronger than I expected.

On a funny note, I also learned that I've been deluding myself lately. Because she's so small she looked like a baby sitting next to all the other 3 year olds. I've been happily thinking that Aidan might be catching up to her age since she's grown a few inches this summer. One girl, who is within a week of Aidan's age, is 5 or so inches taller than her... and this kid is average height...

Oh, and the Mommy and Me class?..... with the just turned 2 years?..... yeah, Aidan was the same size as them.....

LMAO.... what was I smoking?

Thursday, October 01, 2009

Disappointment

I was pregnant...now I'm not...today I miscarried...I know it happens to many women and that it is common...
but I was so excited...

Thinking of readying the nursery alcove in my room...
Wondering if boy or girl...
Looking at my girls and seeing three
Imagining the girls giving kisses
Knowing Aidan would try to take care of it
Knowing that Ainsley would be jealous
Dreaming of baby sweetness...

No little one now to expect in June...

******

So, we'll try again...soon

******

But I still sit here

cramping

hurting


it's OK

but still