Until now, everything I planned out for my life has occurred on MY schedule. When Ainsley turned two I was planning on being 6-8 months pregnant. I definitely wanted no more than 2.5 years between them.
Things just aren't working out.
I have now miscarried three times in a row. (5 weeks, 6 weeks, and 8 weeks) It could be something as "easy" as my hormones are off... which would be great except then I'm guilty of causing the miscarriages. I finally went to the Doctor yesterday and she informed me that if that's the case and I had gone into her office sooner... they might have saved the pregnancy.
Wow!
That was hard to swallow.
Researching on the Internet is not... perhaps.. the best thing to do always. My research told me most Doctors would not do anything until you'd had three. So I was "waiting and seeing."
Stupid Stupid Stupid
Is it wrong for me to grieve for a ball of cells?
Things just aren't working out.
I have now miscarried three times in a row. (5 weeks, 6 weeks, and 8 weeks) It could be something as "easy" as my hormones are off... which would be great except then I'm guilty of causing the miscarriages. I finally went to the Doctor yesterday and she informed me that if that's the case and I had gone into her office sooner... they might have saved the pregnancy.
Wow!
That was hard to swallow.
Researching on the Internet is not... perhaps.. the best thing to do always. My research told me most Doctors would not do anything until you'd had three. So I was "waiting and seeing."
Stupid Stupid Stupid
Is it wrong for me to grieve for a ball of cells?
2 comments:
I am so sorry. I have had two miscarriages myself and my doc told me there was nothing they could do also.No, it is not wrong to grieve. It has been 2 yrs and I still grieve at times.
It wasn't just a "ball of cells", they were your babies. Of course you are going to grieve when you lose them. I am so sorry to hear that you have have three miscarriages. It is tough to deal with. Praying that your next pregnancy will go smoothly.
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